CKD runs my life. It’s sad, but it’s true. Going into year three I feel like I’ve been running this never ending marathon of hard work and lessons. I feel like I’m constantly introducing myself, pitching what I do, what I stand for, what I want to become. This marathon also comes with learning how to navigate extreme lows with extreme highs. It’s constant and feels like it’s never ending. The need to build endurance is important to keep going. I’ve learned that the magic only happens when you keep going. However sometimes there are moments I get to rest and let go and be myself. This past year I feel like I didn’t do enough of the being myself part that I forgot what it felt like to just be me without CKD. I used to talk about independence and freedom being the goal. I used to think once I make enough money to have more independence I would get some freedom from my marathon. My recent trip to LA changed this narrative and opened my eyes to a new perceptive. My freedom and independence comes from when I follow my heart and concentrate on what I want to say to this world. I realize I’m still running a marathon, but it becomes a little more bearable when I can choose my own path.