// MAKE YOUR LIVES EXTRAORDINARY

// 2015 - recap

January 1st 2015: I flew back to New York with only an unpaid internship lined up. My OPT [extended student VISA] was to expire in June. If I didn't find a full-time gig by then I would have to leave New York. I was interning in Brooklyn at a textile company full-time [10:00 am - 7:30 pm]. I would spend my days folding fabric, heat pressing, cutting prints, and hanging finished prints on little hangers labeled Spring/Fall 2016. Interning was the best education I could have ever gotten. New York City internships are tough. You are one in a million. And you're treated that way. I was sitting on the concrete floor of the studio in Brooklyn when my phone buzzed with an email from Holland & Sherry. I picked up my phone with my hands and nails covered in black paint, and there it was, my offer for a full-time position as a graphic designer in the rug department. I was staying, and I was going to make a salary in American Dollars in New York City. 

May 5th 2015 was the launch party for my first collection. Collection N Eleven. I can still feel the the butterflies in my stomach from that day. May 5th was the day that changed everything. I created something and watched my creation come to life. I was hooked. Things moved quickly after that. I set deadlines for myself and made sure that I met them regardless of how tired I was. Ckd summer collection was next, and most recently Collection N Twelve. On top of all of this I was doing freelance work, like the Spring 2015 lookbook for Roots Canada, 6 am shoots with Blake Lively's Preserve, I was meeting with people, and people were interested in what I was doing. My favourite write up from 2015 was in WTF Magazine. Writer Rosa Kaftan just understood me with the questions she asked. We have actually become and remained friends from that interview.

Following your dreams is not easy guys. I'll be the first to say it. Why? Because it takes time, which can get frustrating when you don't see results. While time keeps you waiting you'll come across mountains to climb, mountains that you didn't see in your horizon when you started the journey. And rivers to swim across without a life jacket in sight, or streets to find without any maps. This is the part when you'll want to give up. I almost did. But eventually you start to build up the endurance and muscles to climb up new mountains, you'll discover the hidden bridges when you come across another river you need to cross, and your sense of direction will get sharper. You'll get smarter, and eventually learn time is your friend. Because in between all of these obstacles and waiting is this thing called life. And life is meant to be lived and enjoyed. Without time, you'll miss life. And to me that's not an extraordinary way to live. 

2015 has given me new muscles and showed me where bridges may be hidden. I say 'may' because life likes to test me. It's taught me not to give up. It's taught me how to be very stubborn with my goals, but creative with how I complete them. Let me tell ya, the yellow brick road I started on has taken me on some great adventures and I hope these ruby slippers have enough magic in them to take me on some more. 

In 2015 I wanted to learn to walk on my own. I think I've done that now. 2016, I'm ready to learn to fly. 

// COFFEE OF CHOICE

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Tim Hortons is the coffee of choice when at home. So is using my mom's kitchen as my studio to hang wallpaper samples. Sorry mom. I can't believe it's almost time for me to go back to the big bad city. These past two weeks have been Heaven. Opening my eyes in the morning whenever my eyes feel like opening is the definition of Heaven. I'm spending most the day working on tomorrow's New Years post - my favourite post of the year. After tomorrow I'll be shutting it down until January 4th. I'll be on Snap [ckayedesign] and insta @_candicekaye_ if you feel for following along.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!! It's been a pretty incredible one. Thank you for your constant support, don't think I don't see my views per day. I still sit a disbelief when I see them. I'm just a normal girl trying to make something of herself. And in the process talk on this Squarespace website that I made myself in order to keep my thoughts in order. Here's to another incredible year together. Very thankful I'm not on this crazy journey alone. Now go check your Wednesday horoscope x -C

// 2015

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I cleaned out my room the other day, like cleaned.it.out. Went through my closet, every single tiny box, gave away three bags of clothes, went through some old sketch books and chubby cheek photos, threw out two bags of garbage, and threw out loads of really ugly jewelry. I rearranged all the furniture [an activity I did about once a month as a kid], and took apart my old vision board. It was time for a fresh fresh start. It's also time for a new "hello 2106, bye bye 2015" post. A post where I would normally upload all my favourite and not so favourite photos [like the ones attached] and write an in-depth story about my lessons, surprises, and goals for the new year. I'll probably still do something very similar to that, but as the year comes to an end all the dots that I didn't know where even dots to connect are connecting in ways I never realized before. This is going to be a very very interesting year :) I hope you're enjoying the day! Happy Tuesday and HELLO SNOW. You're a couple days late. 

// TORONTO OFFICE

I don't normally have this much time of my hands. I can like wake up and actually give myself time to think up creative things and stuff. It's a new feeling. A feeling I will need to get used to in the new year. Not complaining, this is a aamassing. I'll be redecorating my office here in Toronto, which means putting up wallpaper [yay!]. I feel like I should choose a print from Collection N Twelve. The collection I feel most proud of. Collection N Twelve and Floyd. Love me some Floyd. What do you think about this one, just maybe blow up the flowers to a larger scale? 

// KASA MOTO

// Toronto Nights

It's been a while since I've been out in Toronto. Every visit home is normally for an occasion of some sort which means home in Richmond Hill is exactly where I would rather spend my time. I have another week here which makes this holiday probably the longest I've been home since last Christmas. The ladies and I drove down to a new restaurant in Yorkville I've been wanting to try - Kasa Moto. The food was delicious, and so were the dirty martinis. I was in need of some much needed girl talk time. The next restaurant on my list in Frings. Not because I secretly wish Drake will be there... 

It's not a holiday in America today so I'm working away, slowly. I hope you had a wonderful holiday weekend! x -C

// CHRISTMAS DAY

// Merry Christmas!

My brother was up before all of us Christmas morning. Laying on the couch with a coffee in his hand with Santa's gift on his lap. Actually that's a lie, my mom was up before all of us... she made the coffee. For the last 15 years we host breakfast at our house Christmas morning. My mom is running around, Yavey's on the grill, Tina is making the pancakes, cookies, waffles #Bless, Meagan is in charge of making sure everything stays warm, I'm cleaning and decorating [aka making myself as busy as possible so I don't need to help in the kitchen. I eventually get there just in time for toast duty, which I still get yelled at for how untoasted they end up] and Daniel - I don't think he did much. We have a large family that have remained super close [therefore making my cousins my best friends, my uncles my second dads, and my aunts my second moms]. I grew up next door to my mom's one brother Peter, and down the street to my mom's other brother Paul. All three families have four kids each... you can do the math. We are loud and crazy but we wouldn't have it any other way. The morning starts with mimosas, and ends with games and coffee. Christmas morning is my mostest favouritest day. It's so nice to be home. Family is everything. Everything. I hope you had a wonderful holiday. x -C

// TIM HORTONS + HOME ALONE + GIFT WRAP + 1989

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The first thing I did when I woke up this morning was take the Jeep [I've been reunited with my Wrangler and it feels glorious, except for the fact that it now smells like boy. My brother has taken it over, Maple Leafs mats and all] to TIm Hortons to order myself an extra large coffee. Extra large so I can heat it up and continue drinking throughout the day. I then put on Taylor Swift's 1989 tour and thought perhaps I should wrap my gifts. My mom ordered like fives rolls [bless her heart] so I stole some :) Taylor just gets me. She thinks big, and remains herself while thinking big. The difference between her and I is - she actually is a big star, and I can't sing or play the guitar for my life depended on it. If you haven't watched the tour yet, it's something to see. It feels so nice to be home, I actually haven't moved from the living room all day. My body is exhausted from the last month that I'm giving myself and my brain some much needed R&R which explains the late afternoon post. There are new horoscopes up if you haven't read yours yet. x-C

p.s. if you didn't order gift wrap in time for the holidays, the shop is going to remain open for special occasions. Mothers day is coming up! 

// MORNING WORKOUTS

// Collection N Twelve

The only thing I've done since I've been home is stare at the wallpaper samples from Collection N Twelve and think about what I should be doing. I've napped, ate a lot, drank a lot, and napped some more. Perhaps I need to give myself a week of nothing before anything creative can flow to my brain. I am excited to have a full day just to sit and draw something. I also wouldn't mind a vacation somewhere, like to St. Barts or the South Of France, something european. I also really need to workout. Alright, back to the couch and TV I go. x -C